181009, sun..clear day...wake up kinda late as sleeping late cz of wandering thru online...recently toooo many things had been happened in me...my sorrows and stressed up moments are tooo much, cant even speak out by words...let me note here wad is the worst thing happen to me, which is my laptop got stolen due to sum incident on tues,131009...inside my laptop, includes lots of my memories and my assignments which due on fri...on the same day, i was tripped inside d kitchen..and twisted my ankle too...and yet, i able to crave a smile all the time on my face de...thou deep inside me, my heart seems like having lots unspeakable words...lots things to share..but i seems to have NO one who really bothers to sit down beside me and listen to my voice in my bottom heart...maybe sumtimes i hate to let ppl know dt i'm weak, need accompany or wad de..mayb jz one word,i dun like to feel like a loser in others ppl's eyes though i noe there is no such thing as winner or loser but i jz cant de....
And now, i'm suppose to study...but my yest mood haven vanish...listening to d song 'Heaven Knows' by Rick Price... cud totally describe my whole feeling now...no one jz know and understand how i feel deep in me...and, i hate the ignorance from you...why?...i know dt i had a very big mistake..but i'm jz soo sorry dt i cant help it when my past memories flash bak...i wanted it to be gone and forever but wheneva your coldness, ignorance occured towards me, i felt hurt so deeply..its so deep actually..and in sudden, my past memories will jz arise...i hate to compare and i definately not comparing this and dt as nth is worth to compare..u know me, u have me by ur side...but y everything seems getting duller and nth seems important to u anymore...y..? who can i blame...? u or me? i dunno....all i can say, i really love you...no doubt for it at ALL!! i wish to walk forward wif u..longer den v can imagine...
About d past, good for u dt u hav a new life...thou my heart do ache abit wen i got to noe it, wad else can i do..jz hope dt u cud find a better wan den me as wad u desire for....=]
At least, there's sumthing cud make me felt happy recently is my parents bought me a new lappy after my lost!! loving my new alphine white lappy sooo muchhhiiiieee!!! ma new precious since oct14th,09....everything dt had lost cant even to be turning bak..especially all my photos...a total real beginning de..no way to flash bak at all.....anyway,thanks to palia fangfang and sarah for accompany me and help me anaylzing d pro and cons de! hehe..muackz!! ^.^
**mY pRecious**
Vinns
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