Feeling Helpless

241009, sat..clear day..a week which suppose to be study week but i seems enjoying life so much..going here and there..at 1st, my study mode was lik really heated up!!..but right now, im staring at my book..i tried reading..nth seems going inside my mind de...if this continues, im so gonna fail for this semester...

Undeniable, i juz dun understand why...every single time, i come bak to sban..there's sure sumone or sumthing at sumwhere reminds me bout sumone de..its haunting me again..i dunno y that sumone cud play in my mind so much...its lik, come on, i cudn't even put a damn de...it cud not change anything de...but i remembered a phrase dt i saw from sumwhere saying that ^sumone only able to realize wad's d meaning of 'I Love You'..wad's the importance by now,which sumone didn't notice it previously^
i was lik omg...wad do u mean by dt....all this while during our times is wad to you??!....im so speechless...

Actually, i shud feel happy for sumone..yes indeed..i truly felt glad dt sumone found your own happiness..own life..free from burden...but frankly, deep in me...i noe dt i still need more time and space to totally erase sumone from my mind..my heart...much more time~~ i hate to admit my feelins towards sumone is still existing or wad..but d fact is its not existing anymore but jz those shadows appear most of the time when things seems got related to sumone.. but by now all i can say,i juz hope evrything shall be gone and forever!! hoping wadeva dt related sumone cud vanish!! and hopefully you wud lead a happier and lovely life in future...and i belief you will..you definately will! good for you..

As for me, i wudnt waste my time to focus on sumthing dt is not worthy..as im going on smoothly wif wad i have now..i wudnt demand much more as i noe dt i wud able to get wad i wan if i jz voice it out...though its not 100% fulfilled, at least i know dt you tried your best..not only dt, i know dt you cares for me..but sumthing is still missing...as wad i told you,hoping there's solution within us..maybe after my event next year, hope dt everything cud turn bak as sweet as be4.....as how it begins...truly looking forward towards it..............

=>>really need to study liow...forcing myself to hav d mood..aikkzz >.<

Vinns